Helen Grace has been sleeping in her crib in her room this week, and while we aren't getting more than three hours of sleep at a time, the sleep that we are getting is a little better quality. She has either been sleeping in a cradle in our room, or she and I have been sleeping on the couch in the den with the swing or Boppy chair close by. I didn't realize how much I missed my bed- although the kitties are mad that I'm back and using my pillows again! We have set up the AngelCare Movement Sensor monitor in her room, which will set off an alarm if she stops breathing, so we feel much more comfortable with her being upstairs by herself. Also, we are learning her noises, so we can tell through the monitor if she's just making her normal grunting noises or if it's a 'hungry' shriek.
Helen Grace is eating like crazy, and she's now up to 7 pounds, 10 ounces. So exciting! I have about reached my wit's end with breastfeeding, but I'm determined to make it to the 6-week mark before I make a decision about whether to continue. I would like to feel like a woman again and not just a cow (heehee!), although it really is a neat connection with her.
We've noticed that after she finishes a bottle, her breathing is very raspy and sounds liquid-y, and sometimes she'll gag or cough. Also, she has started spitting up a good bit, and her nose gets stuffy at times. After talking to a nurse at a new mom's group yesterday, I took her to the pediatrician today, who has scheduled a 'modified barium swallow' for next week. He wants to first make sure that everything is making its way to her tummy correctly and then determine if it's just acid reflux causing problems. Luckily, the procedure doesn't sound as scary as I first thought. We bring a bottle of formula to the appointment, the speech therapist adds the stuff to her bottle, she drinks it, and then they take some x-rays/scans to see where the food went. Keep your fingers crossed that she doesn't throw a fit!
Several people have asked how Rebel and Mocha are doing with HG's arrival. They are completely different cats! They used to run and hide when someone knocked on the door, but now they run to the door to try to get any possible attention. Bless their hearts, they need lovin'! We've tried to still give them plenty of quality time, but apparently our hands- and laps- have been a little full lately.
Big progress for me in the last week or two...I am so relieved to have finally been able to stand up without being reminded that I have had a c-section. Yay! It has taken a solid three to four weeks to get to this point, and man, I'm happy that part of this experience is behind me! I am hoping that as time passes, I will continue to 'forget' certain parts of her arrival so that we can look forward to adding more children to our family in the future! It was definitely all worth it though. Helen Grace and I were cuddling on the couch one day, and just as I had drifted off to sleep, I felt the lightest touch on my cheek. I realized it was her precious little hand. My baby girl's little hand. What a breathtaking moment. I am in love with this child with which we have been blessed!
One month old- holy cow! June 25, 2009